Okay so I will start from the beginning..

I took a nap.  ERGO I can't sleep.   So here I am sitting awake, alone in my house, listening to the guy outside my window mess with the electrical box on the building, and i have nothing to keep my mind from wandering.  Wandering over all the little silly things that I shouldn't worry about but do anyway. 

It's not even  time to worry about whether or not I get accepted to U of I, because I am going to fill out the appilcation to go there next fall.  But here I am worrying about classes that I haven't even taken, thinking about things that I know will only make me worry about it more, and all because I decided that it would be a great idea to go to sleep so that I wasn't in so much pain. 

Silly me. 

Then, my brain decided that I didn't have enough to worry about, so it started picking other things... and what are the other things in my life that I have to worry about?  Work... school, money, insecurities, relationships with family and with everyone else.  

I started freaking out about things that I shouldn't be freaking out about. 

Everything, first it school, then work and money and then other people. 

I am 

Freaked-out

Insecure

Neurotic and

Emotional

I don't know whether or not my mind will ever shut up... but i need to follow my own advice don't i?

SOMETIMES THE BEST CONFIDENCE THERE EVER IS, IS TELLING THAT LITTLE VOICE IN YOUR HEAD TO SHUT THE FUCK UP>

so here's to the doubts in my brain. Cheers, to you, and shut the hell up. I will try my best, and give it all I got.  That's the best i can do, and at the end of my life I will know that. 

There's a slice of confidence.  I'm getting there.